Yesterday was the second day of shooting for the ‘Tres Pound / Piece of Shit’ video. Nothing really went right… but in the end… I think we got what we needed. This video is going to be fucking hilarious. I hope people know I’m just kidding.
This week has been a lot of work.. I finished my album cover and started getting my merch ready for Europe. I need to make some serious coin out there selling SOMETHING because I don’t know exactly what I’m doing afterwards… but I’m not going home.
I just don’t know what to do next. I’m always somewhere else.. It’s like.. I need the instability to motivate me to keep moving forward. I’m scared. I could be anywhere in a month. Toronto, Vancouver, New York, Edmonton… who the fuck knows. I kinda like not knowing.. But at what point is it just moving.. and not moving forward?
I’m flawed. I know that. So is everyone. I don’t think for a second that I’m special or different.. all I know is that this shit is the only thing that I want. Putting out this album is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do.. and a year ago.. I couldn’t have realistically said that I was going to be able to do it. But doing it properly is an entire different thing. What if nobody cares?
Every single move is terrifying. The first show, the first tour, the first record deal. I’ve almost quit this music shit out of PURE FEAR – so many times.
So And I can’t remember one day of my life that I didn’t feel that way.
Here’s the cover to my upcoming album ‘Insufficient Funds.’